~Everlasting Love~ 3/17-13
At times I find myself wanting to talk to you, but I never really know what to say.
I find my words kinda slurred because it's fairly absurd to not find a single word… for a person who isn't your friend, but isn't your enemy. We can't be friends, we can't even pretend to be.
We're stuck in a place of bewilderment, and there's no way of escaping it because every alternative is incompetent. Sadly we'll never have any accomplishment…
Sometimes my heart wants to reach out, but my mind won't allow me to. Because I don't wanna be like everyone else, I'd rather show you support than follow you! I don't wanna just give you hype, but it's hard to give acknowledgement without being stereotyped.
I wanna be SEEN differently, I don't wanna be someone that is inexplicably all over you. Anyone can do that. But I'm better than that, I'm a person too; therefore, why should I worship you? I'm not the type of person who will favor ANYTHING that a person does, just because the person has done it. That's not my definition. That's not real support, it just —temporarily— increases self recognition.
But the love I show is everlasting. Whether or not a person is there for me, I give real support and not just something momentarily.
Even if I wanted be somewhere, I have to be WANTED to be there. I'm a really different person, but the truth is, if I'm not seen differently by someone than my affiliation with them would be useless.
To say I love you would be inane, and to say I miss you would be stupid. My attempts of speaking are all fruitless. It gets on my nerves to be enabled to speak words that are stable. I feel that any words I try to imply will incriminate me, maybe that's why nothing really comes to mind, I don't know why.
Though I try to let the words fly before time dies every strive gets belied and the only word that comes to mind whereby to apply is…….. Hi..