I’ve realized that nostalgia is bittersweet. It can really be triggered by anything— all the things you used to watch, or the foods you used to eat.. all the fun that kept you so preoccupied— you never felt the summer’s heat. Or maybe it’s the thought of fast forwarding your blockbuster rentals until the movie started, then rewinding it in the end so you’ll return it how you got it. Or remember when you got your first cut? How it didn’t even hurt until you began to see blood?
He tells me that he misses my smile (as if that will excite me). He tells me how beautiful I am (as if my beauty was unbeknownst to me). He tells me that he misses my kisses, and that he really wants me back. But all I wanna do is keep my distance, kuz I've been there and done that. Did he expect me to overload and explode with rejoice to the words of his choice that he spoke with his voice? Kuz… even if he told it to me in 32 different languages, it'll still mean the same th
~Let me out~ 11/18-06
Yo, let me, let me out, I don't wanna live like dis. Come relieve me from this unnecessary pain that I'm in. Let me out so I can finally fly like da birds, let me out to write my lyrics of positive words. Let me out, I can't take dis any longer, though I know I was taught that pain will only make you stronger. But this is not just pain, this is suffering and torture. So let me out, let me out to be free, a new world is all I ask 2 see, let me out and LEAVE ME BE! Open da latc
~Livin' dis life ☹~ 11/19-06 6:58 p.m.
Nice life? I don't know u, so I can't say I dislike u. But I know that if I find u, dis is what I might do: feel so happy that I cry, feel like I'm in heaven, just might fly… feel like I'm going on a joyride. Sometimes I stop and think what does it take? Should I just keep on living life Or should I take it away… and die? But if I do then I'll never know, I'll never love myself or learn… I'll never grow. Sometimes I dream about living good, can't get there I can only imagine.
~Reality~ 10:09 p.m. 11/27-06
I feel that that people don't do things intentionally, they do them unknowingly. Well, most of the time. Sometimes I do wrong, but want right to come back, hoping someone would cut some slack, but it doesn't work like dat! Everyone deserves good, but that doesn't mean 2 do wrong because you could, and 2 prove that it doesn't matter, kuz in the end you'll receive goods. So when it all falls down 2 da truth: people do good AND people do bad, but people don't always see the good
You're always running through my mind, I think about all the time. From daylite, 2 nite damn I just want U to be mine. When I call U I get butterflies & when U call me I blush, I feel so nervous talking to U & sometimes I just hush. I wanna tell U how I feel but can't seem 2 succeed, you're nice & u keep it real, that's basically all I need. We've been friends 4 so long, and I don't want my feelings to interrupt, but I can't help how I feel, I just can't ignore this crush. I'
Shawty wuz kinda tall, light-skinned, nice smile, nice lips. Had swag, stayed fresh… I can't believe I haven't talked to him YET! I could only stand there while the atmosphere absorbed his aroma, but couldn't speak. It may sound preposterous, but his appearance effected & constantly made me weak. He keeps me reminiscing on the apparent effect that he had on me, but us not being together… I guess that's how it HAS to be. Although I'm still getting butterflies & smiling when I
I thought I had moved on, But i realized that I didn't. When I'd believed that my feelings were missing, they were there and never left, they had only been hidden. And I was so unaware that my feelings were even there. Through all my anger, all along, deep down, I was scared! When I thought HE could be replaced, no one else could compare ----- I didn't REmember moments 'til I RElived the moments of our PRElived condolence. Now we're on top of our love and only WE WILL control
Love---- period---- ties an intimate bond between people, that's significant from you to that person and them ONLY, that NO OTHER can claim from you. A COUPLE'S love deals with another form of the emotion, that is made for the two of you....ONLY. With couple's love you become more deeply involved with; trust, intimacy, respect, responsibility, balance and not to mention love itself and ETC. It mostly consists of the same elements as any other love. Only with this kind, you se
~Cold and Lonely Night.~
My nights are long, and they seem 2 get longer. Loneliness is strong, and it seems 2 get stronger. What a cold and lonely night. I thought the lights were on, but they seem to just flicker. Days are getting colder & colder and the coldness only gets thicker. I wanna be on the move, but can't move any quicker, and all this coldness and loneliness only makes me much SICKER! Even in a fully-packed room, I still feel alone. Like a queen with all the riches, a crown, but no throne